Friday, April 29, 2011

Beauty and the Sovereignty Of The Goddess

"What is the not beautiful? Our own secret hunger to be loved is the not-beautiful. Our disuse and misuse of love is the not beautiful. Our dereliction in loyalty and devotion unlovely, our sense of SOUL-SEPARATENESS is homely, our psychological warts, inadequacies, misunderstandings, and infantile fantasies are the not beautiful. Additionally, the Life/Death/Life nature, which births, destroys, incubates and births again, is considered by our cultures the not-beautiful."
-Clarissa Pinkola Estes- "Loving the Not-Beautiful"

I have been rereading the myths we all know; The Princess and the Frog, Zeus and Hera, King Arthur and the Green Knight. In the Arthurian myth of the Green Knight, Arthur is set forth to find the answer to the, in my opinion, greatest question of all, What do women want?. The answer, Sovereignty, being independent and unlimited by any other. How can we, as women, be sovereign and at the same time be part of everything? I feel that this idea of sovereignty has been twisted in the western world. The word 'independent' has taken on the quality of "without a man" and the line "unlimited by any other" has hardened a western woman's idea of self. The inability to find sovereignty within our own selves has forces us to search outside for the culprit of our lack of "independence". This kind of outward blame toward men, first off, and other women second, has given us a false sense of what independence actually is or that there is an independence to be found anywhere. I feel that this is the kind of thinking has lead us away from our Goddess and forced us to look everywhere but inside each of us for a source of power. So, look inside, find your Goddess and rewrite the myths of our past. Each one of us has the power to find "Sovereignty" and interconnectedness within, in a way that lets us be independently a part. My brain hurts now... I must think on this a bit more. I would love any feedback from my fellow Goddesses.... Aloha!

Thursday, April 28, 2011

Building Of Indra's Net: Hawaiian Style


I am on a roll with my version of Indra's Net. I have been searching the property and have found just about everything I could need, and lots of stuff I just think is wicked cool. First wicked cool object: full motorcycle frame, fender to fender! Second wicked cool object, window frame perfect for weaving a net through. I have come to the idea that this net will be my story. The story of my days here, how I spend them and how I build from them. I am taking it slow, building just what I feel that day. My plan is by the end of these beautiful 5 weeks I will have built a myth of my own, my own net of knowledge and interconnectedness. I'm off to trek the....on the way up, HILL OF DEATH... on the way down, lovely mountain road... to search for more wicked cool backyard objects! It is getting cloudy, so that means the internet will be out in a bit so check back tomorrow for up dates including an interview with Mavrick Carvalho, Musician and Song Writer, and "K", a UN Tribal Advocate. Aloha!

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

Here and There


Wow! This island just keeps getting better and better. I have been solo for the last 6 days, no internet, no Katie, just me and the jungle! From the tiny Hawaiian hut to the main road is about a mile and a half, then the hitch-hiking begins! I have been thrown out of my comfort zone, the one where I own a car, know where I am, and can read and of the street signs, into a world of cars passing by, road side Kona coffee and riding with the locals. I have been picked up by a couple in a Benz, a self proclaimed "Dude" in a jeep with no doors, John the helicopter pilot, Jeff the school teacher, and Paddle Boy the fisherman! Talk about a way to meet the island family! With each ride comes the question, "What brings you to the Island?",
"Well.... I am on a quest to find the Western Goddess and her connections to art, consciousness and culture...."
This is usually followed by a pause and a look of, well, confusion. Not confusion of what I said, just of how I came to be here, in Hawai'i, searching for something that is all around.
The Goddess is everywhere here. She seems to show her face in so many ways, coming at me from all angles. On the door of a friend's yurt stands Green Tara, the national Goddess of Tibet, representing the active aspect of compassion. In the land, fruits of the Goddess flowering at every turn. The Jack fruit has seeds as big as my thumb and a mandala in the center so perfect it must be from the Goddess. The inspiration that flows here is what I'm coming to find as the Goddess within me awakening. I have started to build a Hawaiian take on the story of Indra's Net. I have built a make-shift pit-kiln to fire the clay I found on Katie's property. Along with a bunch of beautiful wood and coral from around the coast I will do my best to recreate Indra's Net...

FAR AWAY IN THE HEAVENLY ABODE OF THE GREAT GOD INDRA, THERE IS A WONDERFUL NET WHICH HAS BEEN HUNG BY SOME CUNNING ARTIFICER IN SUCH A MANNER THAT IT STRETCHES OUT INDEFINITELY IN ALL DIRECTIONS. IN ACCORDANCE WITH THE EXTRAVAGANT TASTES OF DEITIES, THE ARTIFICER HAS HUNG A SINGLE GLITTERING JEWEL AT THE NET'S EVERY NODE, AND SINCE THE NET ITSELF IS INFINITE IN DIMENSION, THE JEWELS ARE INFINITE IN NUMBER. THERE HANG THE JEWELS, GLITTERING LIKE STARS OF THE FIRST MAGNITUDE, A WONDERFUL SIGHT TO BEHOLD. IF WE NOW ARBITRARILY SELECT ONE OF THESE JEWELS FOR INSPECTION AND LOOK CLOSELY AT IT, WE WILL DISCOVER THAT IN ITS POLISHED SURFACE THERE ARE REFLECTED ALL THE OTHER JEWELS IN THE NET, INFINITE IN NUMBER. NOT ONLY THAT, BUT EACH OF THE JEWELS REFLECTED IN THIS ONE JEWEL IS ALSO REFLECTING ALL THE OTHER JEWELS, SO THAT THE PROCESS OF REFLECTION IS INFINITE

THE AVATAMSAKA SUTRA
FRANCIS H. COOK: HUA-YEN BUDDHISM : THE JEWEL NET OF INDRA 1977

Hitch-Hiking back to the tiny Hawaiian hut to work on the infinite net of the Goddess, the art she creates and the world that is reflected. Talk to you all soon! Aloha!


Friday, April 22, 2011

Alter Native

Yesterday I visited a sacred temple in the Kealakekua (Ke-a-la-ke-ku-a) Bay. The temple has been guarded my the women of one family for the last 44 generations. I spoke with the guardian for a while about her ideas of Goddess. I started off by explaining that I am a student at The Evergreen State college, which I described as an "alternative" college. Right as a said this she corrected me, "You mean Alter Native". She continued to explain that all alternative approaches are just a revival of native approaches. She has been a native advocate for the last 20 years with the UN. She has traveled to almost every country on earth to learn and teach with the native peoples of our world. My time with her was short and we made plans to meet for a formal interview next week.
" The Goddess of the West is not gone, she is only sleeping within each of us. It is our own power that will awaken her."

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

Pele Myth

Here is a good one... It is a bit long but goooooooddddd!!!


Described as "She-Who-Shapes-The-Sacred-Land" in ancient Hawaiian chants, the volcano goddess, Pele, was passionate, volatile, and capricious. In modern times, Pele has become the most visible of all the old gods and goddesses. Dwelling in the craters of the Big Island's Kilauea Volcano, she has been sending ribbons of fiery lava down the mountainside and adding new land around the southeastern shore almost continuously since 1983.


Lava entering the sea.

Pele was born of the female spirit Haumea, or Hina, who, like all other important Hawai'i gods and goddesses, descended from the supreme beings, Papa, or Earth Mother, and Wakea, Sky Father. Pele was among the first voyagers to sail to Hawai'i, pursued, legends say, by her angry older sister, Na-maka-o-kaha'i because Pele had seduced her husband. Pele landed first on Kaua'i, but every time she thrust her o'o (digging stick) into the earth to dig a pit for her home, Na-maka-o-kaha'i, goddess of water and the sea, would flood the pits. Pele moved down the chain of islands in order of their geological formation, eventually landing on the Big Island's Mauna Loa, which is considered the tallest mountain on earth when measured from its base at the bottom of the ocean.


Steam rising as lava enters the sea.

Even Na-maka-o-kaha'i could not send the ocean's waves high enough on Mauna Loa to drown Pele's fires, so Pele established her home on its slopes. Here, she welcomed her brothers. A cliff on nearby Kilauea Mountain is sacred to her eldest brother, Ka-moho-ali'i, king of the sharks and the keeper of the gourd that held the water of life, which gave him the power to revive the dead. Out of respect for this brother, to this day, Pele never allows clouds of volcanic steam to touch his cliff.

Her other brothers also still appear on the Big Island mountain; Kane-hekili as thunder, Ka-poho-i-kahi-ola as explosions, Ke-ua-a-kepo in showers of fire, and Ke-o-ahi-kama-kaua in spears of lava that escape from fissures during eruptions.

Of all her siblings, Pele favored her youngest sister Hi'iaka, the most. Pele, Hi'iaka and another sister, Laka, goddess of hula, were all patronesses of the dance, but Hi'iaka was said to have hatched from an egg that Pele kept warm during the long canoe ride to Hawai'i by transporting it in her armpit.

After Hi'iaka grew to womanhood on the Big Island, Pele traveled in spirit form to the north shore of Kaua'i to witness a dance performance at a pahula, or dance platform, that still exists near Ke'e Beach. Here she manifested herself as a desirable young woman, and quickly fell in love with a handsome young chief named Lohi'au. She dallied with Lohi'au for several days, but eventually her spirit had to return to her sleeping body on the Big Island. Upon awakening, Pele sent Hi'iaka to convince Lohi'au to come to her. The sisters extracted vows from each other: Hi'iaka promised not to encourage Lohi'au should he become attracted to her and in return, Pele promised to contain her fires and lava flows so as not to burn a grove of flowering ohi'a trees where Hi'iaka danced with her friend Hopoe.

On Kaua'i, Hi'iaka found that Lohi'au had died of grief after Pele disappeared, but the graceful younger sister was able to restore his spirit to his body, bringing him back to life. Together, the two of them began the journey to the Big Island, but Pele's suspicious nature got the best of her. Because forty days had passed since Hi'iaka had set out on her assigned mission, Pele decided she had been betrayed, and so sent a flood of lava into Hi'iaka's 'ohi'a-lehua grove, killing Hopoe in the process. When Hi'iaka saw the smoldering trees and her dancing friend entombed in lava, she flung herself into the arms of Lohi'au. In retribution, Pele set lose another stream of lava, which killed the mortal Lohi'au, but Hi'iaka, a goddess, could not be destroyed.


Madame Pele always manages to produce some sort of excitement for her guests. On this day in 1924 it was a huge steam eruption in Kilauea caldera.

The legend has a happy ending, however, as yet another brother of Pele's, Kane-milo-hai, reached out and caught Lohi'au's spirit when he saw it floating past his canoe. He restored the spirit to Lohi'au's body, and once again, the chief was brought back to life. Hi'iaka and Lohi'au returned to Kaua'i to live contentedly.

Legends about Pele, her rivals and her lovers abound. Most of the lovers she took were not lucky enough to escape with their lives when she hurled molten lava at them, trapping them in odd misshapen pillars of rock that dot volcanic fields to this day.

One lover who proved a match for Pele was Kamapua'a, a demi-god who hid the bristles that grew down his back by wearing a cape. The pig god could also appear as a plant or as various types of fish. He and Pele were at odds from the beginning; she covered the land with barren lava, he brought torrents of rain to extinguish her fires and called the wild boars to dig up the land, softening it so seeds could grow.

Pele and Kamapua'a raged against each other until her brothers begged her to give in, as they feared Kamapua'a's storms would soak all the fire sticks and kill Pele's power to restore fire. In Puna, at a place called Ka-lua-o-Pele, where the land seems torn up as if a great struggle had taken place, legend says Kamapua'a finally caught and ravaged Pele. The two remained tempestuous lovers, it is said, until a child was born, then Kamapua'a sailed away and Pele went back to her philandering ways.

Pele's greatest rival was Poliahu, goddess of snow-capped mountains, and a beauty who, like Pele, seduced handsome mortal chiefs. Pele's jealousy flamed after she had a fling with a fickle young Maui chief named 'Ai-wohi-ku-pua, as he was traveling to the Big Island to court a mortal chiefess, Laie. Paddling along the Hana Coast, 'Ai-wohi-ku-pua saw Pele in human form as a beauty named Hina-i-ka-malama, riding the surf. He paused for a brief affair. Then he went on to the Big Island, where Poliahu seduced him. He convinced his personal goddess to release him from his promise to his first love, and went back to Kaua'i with the snow goddess. Pele (as Hina-i-ka-malama) chased after them, eventually winning back the fickle chief, but Poliahu was so vindictive, she blasted the lovers with cold and heat until they separated, and 'Ai-wohi-ku-pua was left with no lover at all.

According to Hawaiian historian David Malo in his book "Hawaiian Antiquities," in old Hawai'i, some gods and goddesses, including Pele, were believed to be akua noho, gods who talked. They could take possession of an earthly being, who became the god's kahu. Malo writes, "The kahu of the Pele deities also were in the habit of dressing their hair in such a way as to make it stand out at great length, then, having inflamed and reddened their eyes, they went about begging for any articles they took a fancy to, making the threat, 'If you don't grant this request, Pele will devour you.' Many people were imposed upon in this manner, fearing Pele might actually consume them." Naturally, people who had seen others destroyed in Pele's fiery lava flows, were terrorized by such a kahu.

Pele has continued to intrigue contemporary men. Not long after the old religion was abolished in 1819, the high chiefess Kapi'olani defied Pele by eating 'ohelo berries at the edge of Halema'uma'u caldera without first offering them to or requesting Pele's permission. In open defiance, Kapi'olani threw stones into the molten lava below. When she was not harmed, she insisted it proved Pele had no power and it was time for Hawaiian people to accept Christianity as their religion. In 1823, when Reverend William Ellis became the first white man to visit Kilauea, most Hawaiians accompanying the expedition were still in awe of the volatile goddess. The hungry missionaries began to eat 'ohelo berries, but were quickly warned to give Pele an offering. Ellis wrote, "We told them ...that we acknowledged Jehovah as the only divine proprietor of the fruits of this earth, and felt thankful to Him for them, especially in our present circumstances."...We traveled on, regretting that the natives should indulge in notions so superstitious." At the crater, the Hawaiian guides "turned their faces toward the place where the greatest quantity of smoke and vapor issued, and, breaking the ('ohelo) branch they held in their hand in two, they threw one part down the precipice, saying:

E Pele, eia ka 'ohelo 'au;
(Oh, Pele, here are your branches)
e taumaha aku wau 'ia 'oe
(I offer some to you)
e 'ai ho'i au tetahi
(some I also eat).

To this day, tales of Pele's power and peculiarities continue. Whispered encounters with Pele include those of drivers who pick up an old woman dressed all in white accompanied by a little dog on roads in Kilauea National Park, only to look in the mirror to find the back seat empty. Pele's face has mysteriously appeared in photographs of fiery eruptions, and most people who live in the islands-whether Christian, Buddhist, Shinto, or other-speak respectfully of the ancient goddess. After all, she has destroyed more than 100 structures on the Big Island since 1983, and perhaps even more awesome than that, she has added more than 70 acres of land to the island's southeastern coastline.

http://www.coffeetimes.com/pele.htm

Pele Calling

While sleeping atop a lava field from the 1950's Pele come calling loud and clear. As I slept peacefully, the calls of Pele woke Katie in the middle of the night....

"It was as if I was never asleep, as if I knew I should be awake for her coming. The voice of a singing woman came through the open air yurt. Her voice was angelic, loud and clear; not like a whisper. Its intention was to wake me up. The voice seemed to come from the opening in the top of the yurt. It was calling my name, Katie, only calling it twice, once in the yurt and once as she swept down the coast. The voice was calling in a way that was not frightening but very much calming to my soul. Pele's presences was there for a good solid minute, then she seemed to continue down the coast, still calling my name, but fading away."

I woke to Katie's amazing experience, knowing too that Pele had been in our yurt. I feel that a connection has been made to the other side of the Mists. A bridge has begun. A bridge I hope to cross soon enough.

I will be doing Pele research all day, so check back in a bit to read some more!

Saturday, April 16, 2011

Day Two: Attack of the Fresh Blood

Day two: I woke this morning with a blood sucker attached to my eyelid! The bugs here are epic! They can smell my fresh blood for miles around.

Last night I was introduced to some of the employees of Pacific Quest. Pacific Quest is a wilderness therapy program that supplements organic farming for the wilderness. The program works with people 13-24 years old with behavioral and dependency issues. We talked for hours about the consciousness, or lack of, of youth in a battle with self. I kept thinking, "If only these kids could talk to someone like Anam Thubten". The struggle to understand 'self' from a Western mind set is one of the hardest undertakings of my life. These kids are trying so hard to fill their lack of self with anything other than knowledge; drugs, money, sex, technology. I feel for them, their struggle and the courage it takes to take the first step to enlightenment. I will be headed out to the camp in the next few weeks to shadow Katie and get a first hand look at the work this program does.
We are headed out to the ocean now to hang with the people of Hawai'i. I will update you all later tonight!
PS: We found this Avocado in Katie's driveway... they fall from the trees! I will be thinking twice next time I buy a $5 avocado at the co-op!

Friday, April 15, 2011

Hut pictures





Tiny Hawaiian Hut

Made it to KONA!!! Wow! There is this huge, bright, shinning orb in the sky here, I have been told it is the SUN. I am staying with my best friend and fellow Goddess Seeker, Katie Trujillo. She lives in the mountains over looking the Kona side of Hawai'i in a perfect Hawaiian hut. The shower and the toilet are outside in an open air bathroom! There is a small propane stove and toaster oven for cooking and pretty much open space to roll around in! This tiny hut is perfect for reading,  meditation, and recovering from the outside world. I feel that my time here will be healing and enlightening. We are headed out to explore Kona and get me acquainted with island life! Check back later today for more.....

Thursday, April 14, 2011

Air Port Daze

Hello All!
Here I go... Off to the island life, off to the mists and lava, off to find something that may not be found! And adventure awaits. The story of one woman, 10 books, and a quest for the Goddess the west has lost in the Mist begins now!

SeaTac Airport